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ya,my life….so funny…people always "pei fu" me.dun noe why.they wonder why i still become a best fren with all my ex-gf after we broke.i dun noe why they ”pei fu”. ya,sometimes ,i can go drink,eat,or crazy with them although we broke , but we still always noe the distance.this is wat we call ”goodbye still be fren”haha…

but something more funny….the fren, normal fren that always meet,now all turning bec to me…dunno why,maybe i made mistake,maybe i doing something wrong…but please,sometimes please understand me,fren for so long ,live in one house also dun understand ….

all turning upside down…really funny…

starting from 2morrow,i;ll be moving to KL…everyone will wonder why..?dun noe how to say,but i’d decided to left everthing i belonge in melaka and start a tough life in KL.

i dun noe wat will happen next,maybe i’ll change job again,or maybe i’ll doing well in here.but one thing i noe is i really miss my fren in melaka.i miss the time we spend time together,crazy together…now i alone all the time.

starting from 20mei,i’ll be working as a printing and advertising designer and sales representative in cheras.after i left form 6,already about 1 1/2 year,i been working as sales representative until now.i been working as direct selling ,industry supplier,and gatsby products salesman.but i realise  kind of sales cant help me moving forward,ya,i cant earn money enough to myself,but thats is not wat i want.

anywhere,i wan to apologizes to one of my fren,i had done a stupid thing to u…but i dun mean it.i was hoping we can be fren like old time.really hope we can sms like old time…i really hope we can chat lilke old time…sorry…. 

everything seem ok,nice like usuall until after we all go yam cha 12.00am…just like wat we do all the time ,playing ,chating ,talking shit and do other nonsence things at the mamak stall…but dunno why ,i talk a coin and throw to a ger…after the action…i was shock…my memory flash back to the time i was in form 1…i was being 冤枉 of stealing something from my fren…and…they throwing cash on me…say i was poor no money to buy hav to steal …in fact i never do that…after i throw the coin ,although it is onli 1cent…i cant forgive myself…why i become same asshole like them..??i cant forgive wif my action…but wat was happens already become a past tense…
sorry for my fren…i didnt mean it…i promise i wont do the damn action again…sorry..

long time not resting in cc…today just feeling cool in here…lot of thing happen and change…next month is the war month…my own company will open soon.everything will be all the mess…i not much worry about this …but i worry about my brain…dun noe why ,my brain feel like not funtioning well…maybe this is the effect after we broke…last week i went to batu pahat…noe a girl name lim wz ,she a cute girl….dun noe why…her face ,her hair…just like that girl…all night in pub,i just hanging with her…all night my fren all enjoying beer and jigwas in side huging ,kissing girl that only know for few hour…meanwhile she took me outside the pub…we chat all night in smoke …..we chat everything ….but we just can be a good fren only ,nothing else…all night in batu pahat my fren all enjoying thier " sport game" but i just sms with her…wat a stupid , kayu man. maybe i’m not that kind of playboy..dun noe why ..i still affaraid to hurt girls…maybe i now living with girl of the house in here…i start know about the girls….

anywhere to all my pal ,start to care the people u love and people that love u. dun do it when it was late…

after a few week work,feeling still in bad mood!although  the job hav change,the feeling still on the same.not change a lot.now i work as a supplier industry,everything t using psyco,mentality attack…some time even hav to rasuah de customer…  all r using bussiness tactics.something really need a lot of skill to get de deal.now i think i become more evil . next week maybe i;ll need to buy a car.now even my name hav ti change as told by my company.ted,is the name.altthough some of my mentality hav change , but teck still teck.always hoping all my fren happy always!call me if u r free.i still can help u guys sharing secret,and anything!hope all my fren always in HAaPpY>>>….>>>…>>>…>>>>….>>>>.

sometimes i feel i juz like a zombie,really tied,always feel empty!my lough,my smile ,my eyes all were nothing but juz onli a empty sign lough n smile..tats all r no meaning for me again!i juz need a good rest !need a place tat no one boder me!i need 2 sets myself free…i dun wan 2 drag myself down anymore.goodbye 2 drkness,although mentality is getting tire day by day,but i will get stronger day by day…hoping u all guys r de same……from ted